2012 was an intense political year. I had really never been too interested in politics before this, and had not paid much attention. Suddenly, I felt an urgency to research and discover what was going on in the world. Additionally, I wanted to vote with some intelligence, rather than simply choosing a political party and marking their boxes on the ballot. And so, my search began.
Initially, I was stuck on the presidential candidates, Mitt Romney and Barack Obama. I did not like either one of them. It seemed to me that both parties were spewing hate and accusations toward the other, with little focus on real issues. At first I fell for many of the lies, but I did finally learn how to fact check or at least look for more than one or two reliable sources for a story. Fact checking. That is really where my story begins.
The more I searched, the more questions I had. Often, I got sidetracked and other times I just couldn’t believe what I was learning and I would search for more sources to confirm (or negate) these “facts.” I read for days and days and I watched hours and hours of youtube videos. I was driven. I just could not stop. I felt like I was being led or guided to what information I needed. I went from one topic to another, and another, and another. In the end, I realized, each subject matter was a part of the very large puzzle.
I learned so much history and so many new vocabulary words. I had no idea I was so ignorant regarding such important issues. I mean, I knew I paid no attention to politics. Yes, I knew that. What I did not know is what a major role politics play in our lives. I have lived my life thinking we were all safe and secure here in the United States, especially with our elected political appointees and government agencies assuring this. All is well here in the great ol’ USA; all warm and cozy. Right? Not so much. Not quite. No, it is not all that. Furthermore, there is really not much we can do about it…. politics and government, that is.
Finally, I did find what I was looking for. I had no idea what I was even searching for, but I found “the” answer. An important part of the answer is – everything is related. I mean everything. Politics, the laws, taxes, our land, our food, our water, our health and healthcare, terrorism, war, news, entertainment, television and media, religion…. and yes, even the weather! E v e r y thing!
The answer. The answer? I was mostly feeling hopeless after all the research I had done. Yes, I was feeling very hopeless. Late one night (or early morning), it struck me. I had just finished a video series, and I wrote to the youtube person that posted them. I don’t remember exactly what I said, but I did say something about there being no hope for our country. No future for the whole world, really. He wrote back to me and sent a video for me to view. A very short video. Maybe 5 minutes. I watched it. In a nut shell, it told of the only hope we have. It told of God. At that very moment, as I was crying (sobbing, if I recall correctly) and feeling so helpless and hopeless, I began to pray. The Holy Spirit overcome me at that point. I have been guided by him ever since. I wish I could describe this better, but I can’t. It was as if the Holy Spirit entered me. Not a jolt exactly, but certainly it was a sudden awakening. Sudden, intense, and definite. An enlightenment. A burning desire to study Scripture ensued. I cannot get enough. I read for hours each day. (This is totally out of character for me. I used to hate to read). I thirst for knowledge, and desire wisdom.
The answer? Ahh, yes, I found it! The one and only answer – the real answer. God. The only hope and only important thing there is, is God. I have been saved by grace, through faith. It is the gift of God, through Jesus. I am saved. Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! The Holy Spirit is with me always.
I now know there is a huge difference between a true Christian and a “believer”. I was a believer before. Now I am a Christian. Before, I “believed in God,” “believed in Jesus,” and “believed in the Bible” (though I never read it). Now, I read the Bible daily; I study it, and I try to be obedient to God. When I stumble, I truly repent.
Another big event happened that day. I smoked cigarettes for 38 years. The end. I have never smoked another one, and never desired (craved or obsessed for) another one. How did that happen? I know the answer.
Hello, and welcome to my little spot of the internet. I am Kathy. I am a born again Christian, a child of God, doing my best to serve the Lord, and be obedient to his commands.
2 Samuel 22:29 You are my lamp, O LORD; the LORD turns my darkness into light.